I’ve been feeling really down at the xmeltrut.com network recently. I’m worried that I might reach the stage (in the foreseeable future) where I just say “right I can’t be bothered doing this anymore.”
I blame M World for my fear. That used to be updated every day without fail until about 18 months after I started doing it and once a few days slipped, it just collapsed and I stopped updating it altogether. I don’t want the same thing to happen to xmeltrut.com.
You would think that once you’ve been doing something for 18 months you’re not going to suddenly get sick of it. But it seems to happen. I’m past the 18 months stage now though, it will be 2 years on August 1st. That is still like 4 months away but that puts me a good two months past the 18 month mark.
Still I’ve missed odd days on xmeltrut.com and still kept focused and it’s not like this is the first time I’ve felt depressed about it. It’s been an on and off thing for more time than it hasn’t really and I’ve always got through those periods without it falling apart before. But can it go on indefinitely. The history of M World suggests it won’t although the history of xmeltrut.com suggests it will.
Whatever does happen, the amount of posts being made has declined so the chances of hitting the 10,000 post mark by the end of the year are slowly becoming slimmer each day. I thought now that I’m on holiday I would feel better about doing it as I have more time, but I don’t, if anything I feel worse. Maybe it’s because I have no real structure to my day though and I have time to think about it.
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