Kaitlin just said this on The O.C. (which I could do to catch up on now I’m home). They were talking about whether the place changes or you. Which got me in somewhat of a philosophical mood.
I wanted to see what other people thought so I did what any one of us would do – I Googled it. The first result I came up with was an article by E. LeMay Lathan. I also ran the search through blog search and came across posts by Al Martine and a girl named Paige.
I think I believe it’s you that changes, as home was different when I came home. Or was it. That said, I had only been gone for a few months and I had been home several times in that time for a night or whatever. But when I moved back at Christmas things had changed. It was the little things. Like the fact they had re-arranged the days in which people get to pick what is on TV.
Then again, maybe it hasn’t changed. I seem to have gone back, right into my old lifestyle and every is carrying on as if I had never left. I mean, I’m going to go out with my friends over the holidays (not that I didn’t hang out with my friends before but like on nights out this time) but other than that, what is different? I still spent most of my time sat on my computer in my room, watching TV and very little else.
But the real inspiration for the post was not what I was doing at home, but rather that I didn’t want to be home. Before I left I was quite happy to be at home. Now I’m not. I want to be back at uni, there I’m free to live a completely reckless lifestyle :D. There’s a downside to it but it’s well worth it.
And I think that the saying could well mean that you can never regain the feeling. That is I think is fairly safe to say is true. But I’m hoping that turns out to be a good thing. It worries me that when I’m say 30 or 40, I will still wish I was a student as I love being a student. It scares me how fast time is passing though I have to believe that when I reach that age I will feel I am ready for the next stage in my life.
Has anyone else noticed an increase in PSAs (public service ads)?
I first noticed it at the cinema when I went to see V for Vendetta, there were quite a few on as trailers before the movie started.
Then today while we were listing to Radio Aire there were some more and I’ve just watched one about safe driving on Channel 5. Of course I haven’t been big on my media since Christmas so it may have been a slow change or a quick change while I was away. But whatever it is, there seems to be a lot more recently.
Well I’m not totally depressed again. I only left two days ago and I’m already missing uni like crazy. Maybe it will pass, when I came home at Christmas I started off wanting to be at uni and then by the end of the holiday I had got settled in at home and wasn’t really bothered about leaving, just about the time I had to. You just can’t win.
I’ve gone back to watching Dawson’s Creek, it’s like my comfort food (based on the idea I need my radiation fix which is why I can’t go 24 hours without a computer with internet access). I’m on disk 5 though. To be honest, I don’t know where I am. I think I started again at the right episode which I’m watching now, I don’t remember watching this one but I remeber the previous one from the quick description in the DVD case booklet thing.
I only have 7 episodes left including this one though so it’s unlikely to last me through the holidays. And indeed, what do I do without it? DC kept me sane through the final depression stretch of my teenage years and it got to the point that DC meant more to me than anything. I can’t find the right term to describe what I’m feeling but I don’t know what I’m going to do without more new episodes to look forward to. I mean, after this, it’s over. I’ve seen them all. Dawson is my hope, my guiding star that showed me life can turn out right after all. Where do I go from here? And why do I insist in wallowing in a pit of blogging and self pity?
Let’s look on the bright side. I think I was wrong about the clash between Star and the return of Friday Flock so my next few weekends (excluding the one coming up) should be Star, Friday Flock, Wendy House providing I can get some company. Well, not even that for Wendy House, I’m going to blow my entire holiday waiting for it so I will turn up alone if necessary.
Ok, enough about my life, I’ve moaned on for long enough. Tomorrow, I’m going to phone Craig and see if he is up for filming some more Nightmare 90210. Stay tuned.
Just a quick heads up for fans of Nightmare 90210. Episode 4 has now finished post production and will be moving on to distribution very soon. Expect it some time this week. I’m also drawing up plans to get episode filmed, plus an interview with Jimmy Spandex and get the scripts sorted for episodes 5 and 6.
Some of the headlines in The Onion recently have been brilliant :D…
- Study: High Times Not A Gateway Magazine To Harder Reading
- Rumsfeld: Iraqis Now Capable Of Conducting War Without U.S. Assistance
- Poverty-Stricken Africans Receive Desperately Needed Bibles
- Study: Dolphins Not So Intelligent On Land
While phpBB have now released a public beta of their long awaited version 3.0 codenamed “Olympus” they are moving towards it. On March 19th they opened the bug tracker to allow people to submit problems before they make a full on public beta version available.
While my 2003 film “The Hootrix” has been available to download from the internet for literally years I would guess that most people were unaware of this. Now that the movie has been posted on Blair Space I thought I would give a heads up that it is now available to stream on the indie movies channel. If you were a fan of The Mormonator I would recommend you check it out.
This isn’t good, I’m no Facebook way too much. I’m checking for new people I know like every day, often more. I mean, it’s not even that interactive, there is no blogs, no way to let you know which groups have new posts or members, no alerts to possible new friends. And yet I am on there every day.
Got home this morning, did some sleeping, some DVD watching and I have my computers setup and finally got my network up and working again so I can get back spending all my time blogging :D. I still have loads more unpacking to do but I’m sure that can wait till, say, summer.
Ok it’s now gone 2 and I need to be up at 8 at the latest to finish packing. I’ve done a lot tonight (and indeed this afternoon as well) but I’ve left my computers running and some other things I can’t sort out until tomorrow. So I think the best thing I can do now is blog and then sleep.
Today was cool. As I previously mentioned we had lunch in Mine (we refering to myself, Michelle and Sarann, Maths Chris, Graham and George have pretty much disappeared) and then in the evening we went to see V for Vendetta. Well it was just me and Michelle although Sarann turned up with Anne eventually (the movie started at 20:30, trailers finished at 20:50, Sarann arrived at 21:00). It was a pretty good movie, it kept me entertained at least. We then finished off with a drink at The Fenton then me and Michelle went home as she has to be up at 6:45 to get to Doncaster airport by 11:00/11:30 (she’s not sure :p).
I think I’m really going to miss Michelle over Easter. Not that I won’t be missing everyone else but Michelle especially as I think I’m closer to her than any other of my uni friends. Hopefully it will be a good chance to catch up with my pre-uni friends though. It’s going to be a wierd holiday. At Christmas I didn’t really miss uni too much as I was ill for most of it so I was glad to be at home but this time I’m not so sure, I don’t want to go home anyway and with little to do for a month (as I failed to get a job and won’t be doing much revising as I have no motivation) I could see it dragging a little. I like uni.
I would quite like to get some sleep though. The last two weeks have been absolutely mental. It started a week last Monday and since then it’s just been constant almost.
- Monday: we spent the night at Sarann’s baking pizza
- Tuesday: Grant House’s St. Patrick’s Day festivities, got really, really drunk
- Wednesday: Hung over all day, film making society AGM, Battle of the Bands with Oli
- Thursday: A much needed night off
- Friday: another night at Sarann’s as Fran arrived so the four of us sat round drinking
- Saturday: Wendy House. Great night even with losing my coat. Crashed at Michelle’s
- Sunday: Got home at about 6 pm (not having been home since leaving for Wendy House) only to go out again an hour later at most to go to Moorish
- Monday: Another night at Sarann’s, this time baking cookies
- Tuesday: In DEC-10 working on Python until 12:30, we tried to get the take-away people to deliver to the computing lab :p. Then spent a long time debating and generally hanging out with the Christians
- Wednesday: film making society meeting followed by Grill a Christian at the Bod Bar and some more debating afterwards
- Thursday: long day at uni coding followed by helping with a movie shoot. Got to DEC-10 at 10:30 and left at 1:10 am. Got back to Bod at 1:45 and spent an hour debating with the Christians again
- Friday: which is of course tonight, went to the cinema then up till now packing
I think I’ve made my case for the hectic fortnight I have had. It’s different from the end of the first term in that, before Christmas, it was mad for like a week although that week was like up till 5 every night (my earliest night was a 3:30 I think then a lot of 4’s and a 5 or something) whereas this has been pretty sustained.
I think my experiance has been somewhat different this term which is something I would like to blog about as a kind of round-up thing. Oh and I want to blog about the last book I read too. So expect those posts when I get some free time over Easter (which should be fairly soon).