I stood at the back of the kitchen about 1am this morning and thought to myself “I really don’t want to have to come back here again tomorrow and do this all again.”
I felt better once I got outside but still, I grow tired of the constant flow of activity. I made the mistake of giving my body a few decent night’s sleep this week (due to me feeling ill on Wednesday and then my always highly ancipated Saturday morning lie in) and now it’s got a taste for metaphorical meat – it wants treating properly all the time now.
I look forward to Easter. I’m hoping I can resist the temptation to grab more shifts at work and sleep through msot if it as I could really use the rest. My metaphorically 24-7 lifestyle is starting to reflect that of those already caught in the rat race and it’s scaring me a little.
While I’m feeling the strain myself, I’m far from alone though. We recently seem to have been hit by a wave of doom that has been getting people down. The group doesn’t seem to be our sociable selves, lunch attendance numbers are poor and even when people do come, nobody eats or drinks anything.
We only had two organised lunches this week. Two! Indeed the only reason we had a second was because Norm sent a text asking if there was some lunch plans so I threw some together. Thursday there were two of us there, myself and Michelle. Two people! What is that about? Friday also saw lunch plans though I don’t class them as “organised” as Si simply asked “are we going to The Llama?” at like 2pm so we just grabbed whoever was in DEC-10 and headed down.
I suppose the failings of Monday and Tuesday could have been my doing. With Michelle not eating anything due to the Sports Ball and Kieran tiring of The Llama, there were no backup organisers to sort things out when I didn’t, which I didn’t due to general apathy (take that Si, you’re not the only one who can use apathy in a sentence :p).
I think everyone is currently tiring of life in general though. I’m feeling lots of unease and tention from the circle. I’m hoping Easter will cure this Winter solace (I know what the word solace means and that this sentence makes no sence I just think it’s a nice word to fit there providing that you completely ignore it’s actual meaning).
Maybe we are simply seeing things through jaded glasses. I mean, we’re still hitting The Old Bar quite a bit so it’s not like the social scene for the circle had died. It simply feels lackluster at the moment.
I think I’m going to expand on this topic at a later time. Unfortunately that means you’ll have to read more of this rambling crap at a later date. I’ll try and add some silly crap too to keep you entertained.