Archive for the ‘Life’ Category

I slept in until 10:45 again. I really didn’t mean to. I looked at my watch at like just gone 8 and decided, yeah, I can legitimately get more sleep here, I was reading until what I estimate was 12:30 so my 8 hours gives me another half an hour at least. Then I just kind of fell asleep again until 10:45.

Still, what the hell, it’s not like I’m going to be doing anything productive with my day anyway. I’m probably going to spend most of it worrying about hard drive crashes. I’m getting paranoid. I’m overprotective of my data but then I don’t have backups – how am I supposed to backup 200 gb of data? I can’t really afford a spare hard drive and doing it with DVDs would cost me £25 by itself and take a day or two non-stop to do it.

Ok, today’s life plan. Need to put money in the bank, sort my medical form thing out, clear more space on my external hard drive to run backups, sort my emails out and do some general monitoring and website updating. Oh, maybe install Trillian on my desktop too, I’m thinking of moving it over because I’m hoping it will load faster and my desktop is on pretty much 24/7 whereas my laptop isn’t so I’m not on as much.

Kaitlin just said this on The O.C. (which I could do to catch up on now I’m home). They were talking about whether the place changes or you. Which got me in somewhat of a philosophical mood.

I wanted to see what other people thought so I did what any one of us would do – I Googled it. The first result I came up with was an article by E. LeMay Lathan. I also ran the search through blog search and came across posts by Al Martine and a girl named Paige.

I think I believe it’s you that changes, as home was different when I came home. Or was it. That said, I had only been gone for a few months and I had been home several times in that time for a night or whatever. But when I moved back at Christmas things had changed. It was the little things. Like the fact they had re-arranged the days in which people get to pick what is on TV.

Then again, maybe it hasn’t changed. I seem to have gone back, right into my old lifestyle and every is carrying on as if I had never left. I mean, I’m going to go out with my friends over the holidays (not that I didn’t hang out with my friends before but like on nights out this time) but other than that, what is different? I still spent most of my time sat on my computer in my room, watching TV and very little else.

But the real inspiration for the post was not what I was doing at home, but rather that I didn’t want to be home. Before I left I was quite happy to be at home. Now I’m not. I want to be back at uni, there I’m free to live a completely reckless lifestyle :D. There’s a downside to it but it’s well worth it.

And I think that the saying could well mean that you can never regain the feeling. That is I think is fairly safe to say is true. But I’m hoping that turns out to be a good thing. It worries me that when I’m say 30 or 40, I will still wish I was a student as I love being a student. It scares me how fast time is passing though I have to believe that when I reach that age I will feel I am ready for the next stage in my life.

Has anyone else noticed an increase in PSAs (public service ads)?

I first noticed it at the cinema when I went to see V for Vendetta, there were quite a few on as trailers before the movie started.

Then today while we were listing to Radio Aire there were some more and I’ve just watched one about safe driving on Channel 5. Of course I haven’t been big on my media since Christmas so it may have been a slow change or a quick change while I was away. But whatever it is, there seems to be a lot more recently.

Well I’m not totally depressed again. I only left two days ago and I’m already missing uni like crazy. Maybe it will pass, when I came home at Christmas I started off wanting to be at uni and then by the end of the holiday I had got settled in at home and wasn’t really bothered about leaving, just about the time I had to. You just can’t win.

I’ve gone back to watching Dawson’s Creek, it’s like my comfort food (based on the idea I need my radiation fix which is why I can’t go 24 hours without a computer with internet access). I’m on disk 5 though. To be honest, I don’t know where I am. I think I started again at the right episode which I’m watching now, I don’t remember watching this one but I remeber the previous one from the quick description in the DVD case booklet thing.

I only have 7 episodes left including this one though so it’s unlikely to last me through the holidays. And indeed, what do I do without it? DC kept me sane through the final depression stretch of my teenage years and it got to the point that DC meant more to me than anything. I can’t find the right term to describe what I’m feeling but I don’t know what I’m going to do without more new episodes to look forward to. I mean, after this, it’s over. I’ve seen them all. Dawson is my hope, my guiding star that showed me life can turn out right after all. Where do I go from here? And why do I insist in wallowing in a pit of blogging and self pity?

Let’s look on the bright side. I think I was wrong about the clash between Star and the return of Friday Flock so my next few weekends (excluding the one coming up) should be Star, Friday Flock, Wendy House providing I can get some company. Well, not even that for Wendy House, I’m going to blow my entire holiday waiting for it so I will turn up alone if necessary.

Ok, enough about my life, I’ve moaned on for long enough. Tomorrow, I’m going to phone Craig and see if he is up for filming some more Nightmare 90210. Stay tuned.

Just a quick heads up for fans of Nightmare 90210. Episode 4 has now finished post production and will be moving on to distribution very soon. Expect it some time this week. I’m also drawing up plans to get episode filmed, plus an interview with Jimmy Spandex and get the scripts sorted for episodes 5 and 6.

Some of the headlines in The Onion recently have been brilliant :D…

• Study: High Times Not A Gateway Magazine To Harder Reading
• Rumsfeld: Iraqis Now Capable Of Conducting War Without U.S. Assistance
• Poverty-Stricken Africans Receive Desperately Needed Bibles
• Study: Dolphins Not So Intelligent On Land

While phpBB have now released a public beta of their long awaited version 3.0 codenamed “Olympus” they are moving towards it. On March 19th they opened the bug tracker to allow people to submit problems before they make a full on public beta version available.

While my 2003 film “The Hootrix” has been available to download from the internet for literally years I would guess that most people were unaware of this. Now that the movie has been posted on Blair Space I thought I would give a heads up that it is now available to stream on the indie movies channel. If you were a fan of The Mormonator I would recommend you check it out.

This isn’t good, I’m no Facebook way too much. I’m checking for new people I know like every day, often more. I mean, it’s not even that interactive, there is no blogs, no way to let you know which groups have new posts or members, no alerts to possible new friends. And yet I am on there every day.

Got home this morning, did some sleeping, some DVD watching and I have my computers setup and finally got my network up and working again so I can get back spending all my time blogging :D. I still have loads more unpacking to do but I’m sure that can wait till, say, summer.