Despite things having been slowly coming to an end for months now, it really started to bite home that we have graduated and university is over.
That’s huge. It’s been like my entire life for the past 3 years. I can barely remember life before university now and suddently it’s all been taken away. The last 3 years have been the best years of my life and I’m sure other people feel similar, Kieran said the same to me yesterday and could possibly be the best 3 years of my life that I’m ever going to have.
I mean, how many people are we going to lose contact with now? It’s a lot. Let’s not kid ourselves. Most people we’re never going to see again. How many of the people I currently consider close friends and I going to know in 10-20 years? How do you really know when you have made a friendship strong enough to stand the test of time?
Furthermore I no longer have university to hide behind. There is no, “well I’m finishing my degree before I make something off my life.” The wall has come down, now I’m just undefensibly failing to do anything with my life, to chase my dreams and achieve my goals.
I don’t think it helps that with it being summer, lots of people who would otherwise be around have gone back home or on holiday but Leeds feels so empty. I’ve gone from living with 6 other people, near the city and campus where all my friends live to living with 2 other people with everyone living miles away from each other.
Still, not everything has changed. I’m still broke. My pre-tax income has tripled but I’m still broke. I’m still working every day (though I did rather enjoy my weekend off this weekend). I’m still not used to mornings. It’s good to know there are some things you can rely on to be constant in your life.
Anyone else having a similar experience? Open up, share…
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July 14th, 2008 at 1:02 pm
There is only one constant in life: change. This is just another fitting example of that.
July 15th, 2008 at 9:33 am
“well I’m finishing my degree before I make something off my life.” I would be silly to quit now… i have had very similar thoughts! Hiding behind the wall and comfort, ‘knowing’ your moving forward as you are getting a degree feels good and rewarding.
I have seen its a bit harder afterwards as u don’t have that ‘excuse’ that u r moving forward by getting that significant bit of paper that proves to others ur something. You have to be more proactive, its too easy to get stuck in a company and a way of working and become another blip in an endless sea of people. far too easy, so easy its inevitable for most? (my mind thought of neo in that office block then! Matrix1)
I have seen my friends move away too… things are different now, very different. Effort is needed by both parties to see each other, group meeting are extremely hard to do, organising events around peoples different schedules. I think when things happen randomly that’s when the good times are… but that doesn’t happen anymore… randomness is gone now the people that make the randomness happen have left….
Most of my friends have graduated and are getting jobs or moving back home. my friends from college have all graduated, most of my friends from university have. quite strange, feels like i have been left behind, still in the comfortable blanket of uni lol